My last hit of AC!
At 28 years old I didn’t have too many worries in my life! So when I had to consider freezing my eggs to protect my fertility; starting chemo and loosing my long hair all in a matter of three weeks it was a pretty tough time!
I am single, so after much thought, I decided to go ahead with IVF and do an egg collection just as a sort of insurance policy; just in case I can't fall pregnant naturally later. I was told because of my age that menopause would most likely be temporary but it could not be guaranteed. So for nearly two weeks I injected my stomach with hormones each day to stimulate my ovaries. On the day of the operation I woke up from the anesthetic and looked in the palm of my hand to see a piece of tape with the number 39 written on it. 39 eggs were collected, 31 eggs have been frozen but hopefully I will never have to use them.
Five days later, I started my first round of chemo with a swollen stomach from the egg collection. I began my treatment on the 1st of December 2010 and it hasn't been an easy journey. I was nervous to start treatment but nothing could ever have prepared me for how sick I got! I spent the next week in bed only moving to go to the bathroom. The slightest smell of food made me gag! I experienced severe headaches, stomach pains, constipation, vomiting and constant nausea. Hot sweats, chest pain, esophagitis, mouth ulcers and more! You name it I got it. Plus, I was already very ill from the egg collection. I felt miserable and the thought of having my next round of chemo scared me. Luckily I had my beautiful mum looking after me and she continues to do so.
Thirteen days after my first round of chemo I started to feel my head tingle! I had been informed that this was a warning sign my hair was about to fall out. It was only a slight tingling feeling so I told myself it was psychological and I was being paranoid. The next day the tingling sensation was intense. It felt like I’d rubbed deep heat all over my scalp. My hair began to fall out that day. Five days later it was falling out all over the place and that’s when I really lost it and broke down in tears. Having had very long hair, I had it cut short, just after my first treatment so loosing it wouldn’t be as traumatic.
I'd wake up each morning with hair all in mouth and all other the sheets. At one stage it looked like I had a bird nest on top of my head from it matting up in my sleep! I had to get mum to chop it off. New Year’s Day I embraced the baldness and shaved the remaining scraggly hairs off.
On the 19th of January I had my fourth and final hit of AC, a cause for celebration! I was so excited to say goodbye to that horrible red stuff that had made me feel so awful. Two weeks later I was due to have my first round of Taxol. Only I was still recovering from my final AC hit and with a mouth full of ulcers, was unable to start. It was put off for a week but the day before I was due to try again mum had to take me into the A & E as I had a fever and I was admitted into hospital. I spent four long days in my own room on intravenous antibiotics. I was treated as neutropenic and wasn’t allowed visitors except for mum and dad. My lovely cousin Renata snuck in on the last night with loads of magazines for me to read. It turns out that I had a bacterial infection caused by food and my body couldn’t fight it on its own due to my low white blood cell count.
I have lost count of how many needles I have had since I was diagnosed. Luckily I don't have a phobia as it would make my life very difficult right now. Blood tests every week is just part of my normal life at the moment. What I wasn't prepared for; was when I had to have a blood test taken from my foot while I was in hospital. I do not recommend this to anyone. As my canula was in my left arm and my right arm can not be used in case of risking lymphodmeia, the pathology lady thought it would be a good idea to use my foot rather than my hand. How wrong was she! After two attempts and a lot of screaming and crying from me, she then attempted to take blood from my left hand twice and still with no success. I ended up with a severe headache from the traumatic experience and not even a single drop of blood was collected!
Finally, I had my first round of Taxol on the 22nd of February (3 weeks late). So far it feels like a dream when compared to the AC. So far so good! I’ve felt slightly nauseous and have been feeling tired and I’m now experiencing some aches and pains. Otherwise my body feels almost normal and I’m hoping it will remain that way for the next 10 weeks.